Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Keeping Busy

So how is your week going so far?  I've been diving into some big time studio cleaning...
 
 
I've been cleaning out drawers...changing around artwork...keeping my sore heart busy.

Monday, November 28, 2016

Getting Up & Pretending

Okay so the first post that I write after I lose a bunny is always hard for me...
I think because it feels so normal
and when I grieve, I fight against anything normal.
Normal just feels so so wrong, especially when it feels like the whole world
should come to a complete abrupt halt to mourn the loss of a shining light.
 
It's hard for me, knowing that everyone out there but my honey sees this light as just a rabbit.
Most people think I overreact the loss of 'just a pet'...
It's hard that no one but my honey knows how special she was or how brightly she shone.
I can't make anyone understand that I am not mourning the loss of just a pet,
she wasn't a pet...she was my baby, my best friend, my sunshine...a soul mate.
I grieve for her as strongly as I do for any person that I've lost...
because she was larger and more positive in my life than a lot of people!
 
 
But all that being said, I feel like more than all the buns before, in over 20 years of being a bun mom,
I have to make my sunshine girl proud and I have to be strong...
which means to stop sleeping so much, to start eating...
to get up and take care of my hon & the other buns,
to get back into the studios even if I don't want to, to get back to my physio, to watch less tv!
So in that vein I am going to start blogging again because
blogging for me means focusing on the beautiful and positive
and once again, life cruelly shows how sudden and quick this life can be over for no reason at all.
 
We are still physically completely exhausted from the impossibly hard week that she was sick
But I know my girl, she'd want me to focus on the good
So even if I feel hollowed out...I am going to get up...I am going to try...
I am going to pretend that I am doing okay until I actually am!

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Teela

My baby girl is gone.
My honey-bee, my Tee-Tee, my best friend, my soul mate, my sunshine....my everything.
She died in my arms Saturday night due to complications of a week long battle with stasis.
We tried everything.  We just couldn't save her.  We should have been able too... 
She shouldn't be gone but she impossibly is & I don't understand what happened.
 
 
I hope you'll understand that I won't be posting for a little bit...
I will again, this is a healing place for me after all
but right now anything normal, like blogging, brings me to my knees and feels torturous & cruel.
With her impossibly sudden passing, my heart & breath go with her...
my soul stuck somewhere in between.

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Beautiful Weekend

I hope wherever you are in the world...
 
 
That your having a beauty filled weekend XO

Friday, November 11, 2016

Honey & Home Honor

Owning a house is exhausting...there is always soooo much to do...


none of it feels easy lately, especially with both of us having lots of head pain & with my back pain.
 
 
but as I lay back after a busy day inside and outside of the house under a tree turning golden...

 
as I watch the autumn sun sets from the comfort of a warm blanket in my beloved hammock...

 
as we wait for the last leaves to fall so we can get our one final rake & city compost run done...
 
 
I can't complain about any of it because to do it all, every bit, alongside this guy of mine is an honor.

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Time To Tuck Them Away

We are always so reluctant to pull the racks off the truck & to tuck our kayaks away...
 
 
 
 
because it means a long 7 month wait before we can use them again! Sigh!! Tis life in the North!

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

39

Why hello there 39th year...
 
 
So very happy to meet ya....I can't wait to see what we get up to this year.

Monday, November 7, 2016

Precious Furry Priorities

Today is so beautiful...so warm and sunny...
right smack dab in the middle of what's normally a cold time....ahhh....
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
So I am taking advantage & am getting as many buns out to play as possible...
any studio stuff will have to wait...today the buns get priority on this beautiful day!

Saturday, November 5, 2016

Magic

I am wishing you magic....beauty and magic..
 
 
(and time to take in the beauty and magic) this beautiful autumn weekend XO.

Friday, November 4, 2016

Loving Linos

I've been diving back into an old medium
I fell for way back in high school but haven't done in awhile...
linocut printmaking.
I am currently using Softoleum (pictured here) but it's a bit too rubbery for my liking,
so I am anxious to use it all up and trying out some good old vinyl flooring...
 
 
I am having breakfast next week with the beloved man who got me addicted to lino-cuts,
my friend who was also my high school art teacher.  He is a printmaker master supreme himself,
I hang on his every word of advice when it comes to printmaking....and life.
I find myself waking up and instantly craving to get to my chisels & blocks...
I LOVE that feeling...it's a feeling and a high that deserves to be cherished & nurtured.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Artful Blogging

I am over the moon
and the sun
and the stars...
I am beyond cloud 9
past seventh heaven!
because I and my beloved blog are featured in the
 
Winter 2017 issue of
 
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....
 
 
I have loved and admired this magazine for years and years and have stacks of them in my studio.
I believe in and love my blog so much.  I put a lot of effort & time into it and it just
finally felt like time to give it the chance to be seen...
so I submitted and I heard back with a positive answer before I knew it.
This is one of my artistic dreams and goals come true...
In bright, thick glossy paper & beautiful colour
and it's on stands today (or available online).
It's SIX whole wonderful pages just for me.
I adore how they arranged it all, I love each photo they chose.
The editor was so so lovely to work with (and patient)...Thanks Danielle XO
 
and well I just couldn't be happier right now
and I really really hope you guys will rush out and pick up a copy.
 
WOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ha ha!


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