Monday, December 5, 2016

Flynn's Deck

This was our rebuild of the kitchen deck, Flynn's deck, this past summer...we had been wanting
to fix it for ages not only to refresh it but also to make it so that Flynn had a view through
3 new windows, with a clear rain-proof roof for those summer evenings outside with hot cocoa's & twinkle lights & a small bump-out addition with a full-view area for the buns & a spot for the bbcue!
 

 
 
 
 
I usually help with every build we do for our little home but a bad knee injury at the beginning of summer pretty much had me act as the designer and spectator! Until mid-summer when I was
able to break out the color & paint, even than  my guy still had to do the high ladder parts!
I am pretty happy with my design, my man did an awesome amazing job & our Flynn LOVES it!

Sunday, December 4, 2016

Find Beauty

I hope your finding beauty in this weekend...
 
 
And that your holding your loved ones super tight.

Friday, December 2, 2016

Healing Food

I went for almost a week eating next to nothing when Teela was sick,
than 3 solid days with nothing at all after she left...So my body is quite out of whack right now...
 
 
I am trying to get some nourishing good foods in as much as my shrunken tummy
can take to get back on track...noodles are always kind to my tum...and lots of green mint teas!
 
What do you find heals your body when your trying to heal your heart???

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Keeping Busy

So how is your week going so far?  I've been diving into some big time studio cleaning...
 
 
I've been cleaning out drawers...changing around artwork...keeping my sore heart busy.

Monday, November 28, 2016

Getting Up & Pretending

Okay so the first post that I write after I lose a bunny is always hard for me...
I think because it feels so normal
and when I grieve, I fight against anything normal.
Normal just feels so so wrong, especially when it feels like the whole world
should come to a complete abrupt halt to mourn the loss of a shining light.
 
It's hard for me, knowing that everyone out there but my honey sees this light as just a rabbit.
Most people think I overreact the loss of 'just a pet'...
It's hard that no one but my honey knows how special she was or how brightly she shone.
I can't make anyone understand that I am not mourning the loss of just a pet,
she wasn't a pet...she was my baby, my best friend, my sunshine...a soul mate.
I grieve for her as strongly as I do for any person that I've lost...
because she was larger and more positive in my life than a lot of people!
 
 
But all that being said, I feel like more than all the buns before, in over 20 years of being a bun mom,
I have to make my sunshine girl proud and I have to be strong...
which means to stop sleeping so much, to start eating...
to get up and take care of my hon & the other buns,
to get back into the studios even if I don't want to, to get back to my physio, to watch less tv!
So in that vein I am going to start blogging again because
blogging for me means focusing on the beautiful and positive
and once again, life cruelly shows how sudden and quick this life can be over for no reason at all.
 
We are still physically completely exhausted from the impossibly hard week that she was sick
But I know my girl, she'd want me to focus on the good
So even if I feel hollowed out...I am going to get up...I am going to try...
I am going to pretend that I am doing okay until I actually am!

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Teela

My baby girl is gone.
My honey-bee, my Tee-Tee, my best friend, my soul mate, my sunshine....my everything.
She died in my arms Saturday night due to complications of a week long battle with stasis.
We tried everything.  We just couldn't save her.  We should have been able too... 
She shouldn't be gone but she impossibly is & I don't understand what happened.
 
 
I hope you'll understand that I won't be posting for a little bit...
I will again, this is a healing place for me after all
but right now anything normal, like blogging, brings me to my knees and feels torturous & cruel.
With her impossibly sudden passing, my heart & breath go with her...
my soul stuck somewhere in between.

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Beautiful Weekend

I hope wherever you are in the world...
 
 
That your having a beauty filled weekend XO

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